I hurt so deeply
And you were afraid of drowning
I can’t blame you for this
I’ve been floating in it since I was 12
The hurt feels like home now
You can’t run every time the water hits the shore
All I needed was a lifeguard
And you disappeared
I didn’t love him.
But he loved the parts of me I couldn’t stand.
So we played house
Until I burt it to the ground.
Lipstick stained cigarettes and old bookshops will remind you of me even if you can’t remember what you’re remembering.
You can praise yourself for gluing my shattered heart together again
but don’t leave out the part where you dropped it near the end.
You keep me keen
You seem to adore me
Even with all you’ve seen
My jumping jellybean.
Don’t say you’re parting
Only in dreams do I have someone like you
You would leave me starving
My dearest darling.
I know I’ve fucked up
But I’m dying you see
This is merely a hiccough
My beautiful buttercup.
I know you have another
But she’ll never hold you
Like I under the cover
My lone lover.
You are now something I fear
How stupid of me
To think you’d shed even a single tear.
My damnedest dear.
Give me a night alone in my room.
Give me attention but also solitude.
Keep me warm, build me a fire,
Kiss me softly as a grow tired.
Love me gently, but hit me rough.
My body is soft but my mind is tough.
Tell me stories to ease my head,
Please don’t leave me alone in bed.
I want so badly to be free.
Take this life away from me.
Give me pills that make me sleep,
Never again would you hear me weep.
I will write you poems,
From the blood the pours from my wrist.
The colour of your eyes in the sunlight,
Matches the noose hanging in my closet.
Your hand grips mine so passionately,
The same way I held the empty pill bottle.
Your sent is intoxicating,
I just wish I could be locked with it inside a plastic bag.
You gently splashed me in the tub,
And the waves made me want to go to the sea and swim as far as I could so I couldn’t make it back.
I thought loving you would make me better, but you have given death a romantic touch. And I love her more than I could ever love you.
She sat there, her head nearly pressing against the glass, admiring the rain gently kissing the pavement.
He sat in his office, eyes glazed with the reflection of the computer screen, mumbling about how the weather ruined his plans for the day.
Stop trying to find your old lover in new men,
Theres a reason that ended,
You’re breaking your own heart,
The same way,
Over and over,
By your own choice.